I'm sorry you are hurting, but am blown away by the love and support you have received. I know it grieves you when your H doesn't show love to you, but God is obviously pouring out love for you through many, many others right now. I hope you will allow yourself to feel that, and be comforted by it.
Sometimes in my life, I think there's something that "should" happen a certain way, and then -- only later -- do I see where that wouldn't have been good for me, or maybe God had another way.
And at other times, frankly, I NEVER see it -- and maybe never will. It's one of those things I intend to ask the Big Guy someday when we sit down on a cloud and have that talk I want to have.
You can do this, and although I've never met you, I'll be praying for you.
Puppy
P.S. Here's a song that has helped me through my toughest of times. I hope it helps you too:
If I could only fly I'd go up and look down from the sky So I could see the bigger picture And Lord if I could sit with You At Your feet for an hour or two I'm sure I'd ask too many questions 'Cause there's so much going on down here That I must confess I just don't understand
BRIDGE But I have prayed And at your feet my whole life has been laid So I wont worry I wont be afraid 'Cause my soul is resting on Your higher ways Let the road ahead become unclear I am Yours so what have I to fear If my soul is resting on Your higher ways
CHORUS Your higher ways teach me to trust You Your higher ways are not like mine Your higher ways are the ways of the Father Hiding His children in His love
BRIDGE So let it rain And if my eyes grow dim with tears of pain This hope I have will not be washed away 'Cause my soul is resting on Your higher ways
Someday I will fly and Maybe then You will take me aside And show me the bigger picture But until I'm with You I'll be here with a heart that is true And a soul that's resting on Your higher ways
SA, OP, Eric, FM, BA, Mila, PDT and for that matter EVERYONE who has shown me support and love, I TRULY TRULY appreciate your kinds words of hope.
Mila - I will be taking a look at this link you provided. PDT - thank you for that beautiful song.
I have been in this house too long without air except when I head to work everyday. It is empty and filled with memories. I will try my best to insert some activities that get me out of the house. I am also not excited about my current position at work, so with everything else happening, there is no solace in working. I have some changes I guess I must make.
I love my H. I love me. I am okay for now.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
DU - We're right here with you. We understand, we care, you are not alone. Stay with us and we'll support and see each other through this. I truly believe God lead us here for a reason.
I have been in this house too long without air except when I head to work everyday
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Try and go for a walk and enjoy nature. I've found that it helps.
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It is empty and filled with memories.
Try and focus on the good memories and think of some new memories that you can create. Maybe change the furniture. Do something different. Something for YOU.
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I have some changes I guess I must make.
The fact that you can accept the changes shows your strength!
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I love me.
This is good...very good...be good to yourself. Be gentle on yourself.
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
