HI Sage!

Pretty interesting insight from your massuese, huh?

I carry most of my tension in my shoulders...I THINK!!!

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I think it's clear that my disposition tends towards the pensive, the moderate...not the bouncing off the walls blissful! But, DB'ing (and h) have helped me to lighten my mood load somewhat...a bigger appreciation for the little things, more gratitude, etc. Still, though, there IS residual sadness for lots of things...some of it from still healing, from the complexities of life...some of it external...the sad things that happen to others, etc.





Yep, I hear you on all counts...when I first embarked upon cognitive therapy for my anxiety (self administered) one of the assignments was to choose an issue that worried me and write out all the thoughts associated with it.

I actually sat there and CRIED...there was SO much negativity!!! ...I KNEW I was anxious, but I hadn't realized it had virtually taken me over.

Of course the rest of the assignment is to "reality test" my worst case scenarios (eg. what is the ACTUAL probability that XY or Z will happen?) and turn the proverbial "What if???" question right around into "SO WHAT if??


I'm curious about this residual sadness...Would you describe yourself as an especially sensitive/empathetic person?

I know that for the short time I practised therapy I was VERY drawn into the problems of my clients...to an unhealthy degree for me.

Then in about the last 3 weeks (before I ended up hospitalized for the first of my intestinal surgeries ) I found myself becoming more detached. It's what HAS to happen if people are to survive in such a profession.

You just CAN'T take it all home with you...Sometimes a little denial and guarding your own spirit are in order.

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I **think** (ASSumption) that part of h's concern is that HE is responsible for my sadness/unhappiness. OR, that I will BLOW. He's said before that I seem like a time bomb at times. What's a bummer to me is that I feel as though I've really worked that out over the last 6+ months. Maybe it just takes more time.




I see SO MUCH growth in YOU Sage, we ALL do

Don't even think of doubting these changes.

When was the last time your H mentioned the "time bomb" analogy? Just curious you don't give off that sense here...perhaps it's residual "ASSumptions" on HIS part?

...might it take your H a bit longer for them to really sink in...for old assumptions to fade away? Perhaps...But I have this gut feeling that you two are farther along than you realize!!

Shiny