My friend. Follow the path of tough love. She may never love you again. But she will respect you. Some pains must be experienced fully to give yourself the gift of growth. Soon your thoughts will shift from I am doing this for her to I am doing this for myself.
Healthy choices and Why not try to quit smoking now. Because NOW is always the best time to make healthy decisions. You already feel like a bag of Sheeeeiitttttt. Just add a little more to it.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!