Well today I feel so much better.

I had a great time with the kids the past few days and got in some snuggle time too.

The weather has been great the past few days and that helps me to be in a good mood. The next 5 five days however it will be raining.

Dropped the kids off this morning and have had only one moment of sadness and that b/c I thought about how they are going to turn out.

W usually calls each night to say goodnight to the kids and D5 has asked her if she want to talk to me and W says NO.

The one time I had friends over for dinner with their little girl and W called. She told W who was over(innocently) and at the end she asked again if she wanted to talk to daady. W again said no.
They said good bye and then D5 turns to my friend and says "This is so difficult, they won't even talk to eachother"

I had to fight the tears back.

My kids often say things like this when their with me and W has no idea.
She thinks ther doing fine b/c they don't act like this when they are with her.

I have told her a few times the kids aren't doing has well as you think.

Refocusing on me and this mediator meeting to have a post-marriage agreemant drawn up.

She says that "if things don't work out" then the papers will be filed.

I have not seen an ounce of effort on her side to "work on things".

I guess we might as well file the papers once the agreement is determined and signed.

Any thoughts or encouraging words?


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