Will I ever be forgiven???

[Mom of 2 Cherubs]

To All of you who have shared your thoughts here....Thank you all very much. I appreciate your advice, kind words, harsh realities, your experieinces, etc. If you want to read my sitch - even though i am very embarassed to share it - you can look under my name or my exH - hopeforfuture.

I can now understand why he relied on this message board so much for help and support while he was DBing. I hated that he was talking to strangers, it angered me so much. i told him to just talk to me - communication was an issue we always seemed to have problems with.

I do plan to talk to exH or write him a letter - not sure which yet. I need to get it out and make sure he knows just how sorry i am. I don't ever expect to be fully forgiven - i don't know if i could forgive if the roles were reversed. so i will do what i need to do and leave it at that. I will expect nothing in return. if something does come my way - forgiveness - then wonderful! if it doesn't, well then i will be able to fully move on knowing that i have come to terms and will stop beating my self up so much.

Again thank you all for showing me i am not the only that has made these huge mistakes and feels incredible regret. Thank you for making realize that i can move on and be a better person for all of this. I am glad i finally posted and asked the questions.

Blessings to you all!