I must say tat this ordeal had initially cost me my Faith in G-d...I figured if He were there, something like this couldn't happen to anyone. I understand that His plan is likely very diff. than mine, so I'm attempting to roll w/ it.

It's also allowed me to view things not nec. in black and white, but in this case the diff between Good and Evil-

self seeking, selfishness, cheating, lying, etc = EVIL

humility, selflessness, honesty, integrity, self improvement=GOOD

I too look for a sign- I figure that thus far my attempts at control or also "self-will" is not helping, so time to get out of my own way.

Keep praying, I will too!!!

DARK