My Story

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Updating finally since I cant seem to keep away from this site.

-Second session with therapist last night, she is concerned with the meds doctor has placed me on,says I seem to be a lot less focused then the last time we spoke. Had a good talk otherwise, funny though it all seems to be quoted from things I have read here. But it is nice to have the ummmm affirmation I think is the word?

-Still on the roller coaster of "Do I still want to be in this marriage?" But have put that on the back burner for the time being as I am trying to piece together my life and shortcomings I see with in myself. Also trying to let go of the past mistakes and look forward to being a better person as each day goes by.

-I come home to a tomb some nights, it seems the minute I walk in the door everyone heads upstairs and I dont see anyone for the rest of the night unless they come down to get a drink of water or something out of the fridge. This is usually the toughest time for me as the lonlieness sets in.

-Wife has not brought up the subject of D or anything since we returned from my mothers funeral. Well in fact she hasnt brought anything up. We rarely speak more then 1 or 2 words.

Taking baby steps now. Still working towards becoming the "Me" that I want to be. Reading through alot of the older posts here and in some of the other sections is opening up my eyes a bit and helping me to identify traits that I see in myself that I want to change and also gives me some insight into "what went wrong" so many years ago.
Keep up the good work around here guys/gals, at least one person is listening