New here but have been a voyeur

[pearlharbr]

Most of the time, yes. It was definitely rocky and difficult at first but now we've settled into a pretty normal, happy life. We have fun and that's what I liked so much about us before all this crap happened. We have communicated more and more honestly in the past year than all of our previous years together.

There are still doubts which bother me simply because I still have them. It will be settled by the end of the year because I have decided that I will either be married or single to start 2011. I'm trying to just let go and let things happen between now and then.

To be fair, I think I've had an easier time than most because the affair and separation was relatively short and BF was willing to work on himself and the relationship. That said, it's been harder than I ever thought it would be.

That's not to say that I think your H deserves another chance. IMHO he doesn't. I'm all for doing what's best for you. Since your H has a history of adultery I think it's a different sitch. If you want to feel like you've tried everything then I think you should do it for you, not because H deserves it.