I've been keeping up with my 180 and I'm feeling better and better about myself everyday.
Still feel like my husband is using it as an excuse to walk all over me - he is lazier than ever, communicating less than ever, etc.
I just feel like he is getting what he wants - me to go away. He would often say "I just dont want to be an adult". He just acts like a 30 year old teenager. And now since I dont ask him where it is going, what he is doing and I'm "upbeat" I kind of feel like he thinks its all okay to be doing those things.
It's just so sad - he has become someone I don't know. He doesnt't treat me with the respect I deserve. I caught him smoking weed in our house last night, hiding beers outside - I didn't say anything becaues I normally would have screamed at him. Woke up and saw he had been looking at porn on my computer which I have asked him repeadly not to do (he has his own computer but it has a porn blocker on it).
I know that the 180s in a lot of ways are for me - and I get that - I know that I am being the best me I can be and that if he leaves I will have taken away all his escuses and that feels good but it just feels like I'm a doormat now more than ever.
