When you first find yourself here.

[brandnewday]

HB,

I wrote the thread about the MLC'er and their appearance because there is some humor to be found in everything.

You say you have read every single post on this board, if so then you will remember the hell I went through with my Husband and our children.

Do not ever tell me that I haven't walked in your shoes or that I lack compassion. Please don't ever play the holier than thou card with me.

The God I worship and love held my hand tightly as I struggled to get through every single day of my Husband's MLC.

You did not raise 8 children by yourself while your Husband was 3000 miles away with his High School Sweetheart. You have no idea of the hell I endured and what I lived through.

You have made it clear that you have no idea as to any advice about young children and what they go through during their parent's crisis. I saw it first hand and had to learn how to get through every single day with 8 children grieving for their Daddy.

I am well aware of what goes through the MLC'ers head. I have seen and lived through all of the stages. I understand the torment and the agony of what they endure.

I also received the calls in the middle of the night with the suicide threats and the spew, which left me feeling totally helpless and scared for him.

I posted here several times a day seeking answers and finding a place of refuge. As the years went on I also found the ability to come along side some of the posters and offer what little advice I could give.

HB I do not need to live in the past and re-live every MLC moment. My life is full now and I am happier.My life is far from perfect but I have this totally amazing family and look forward now not backwards.

Never once have I had the feeling as if I had "arrived" just because my Husband came home again. I am no better then anyone else here, and it would be wrong of me to act as if I had all of the answers.

I do not find you a threat at all. I do however get curious when someone who has been away for so long suddenly comes back and starts posting long posts. To me it seems as though you need some type of affirmation and attention in your life that you aren't getting at home.

I prefer to stay in the background and have no desire to carry the responsibility of Queen Bee. If someone wants to get a hold of me they find me on Facebook.

As I posted, my Husband is well aware of this DB board and has read the archives and has seen what he and other MLC'ers have done to their family.

AND if he can laugh about himself and be thankful that he is no longer a part of that world, then I have no shame at all in starting that thread.