Her committment fluctuated a lot. She had felt rejected, so since I didn't love her for who she is, then there was no hope. Other days, she felt like any kind of D would be rediculous because we were meant for each other.
I think it is fair to say a lot of her feelings were reactions to my own or what had gone on that day.
Opening up brought her some more hope - partly because she felt I was more committed to the R and my heart was opening up more to her. I was telling her mostly negatives from the two charts, but she and I felt more connected by it.
So now, her committment is OK. Not good. Not bad. Keep in mind, TBL, that she doesn't understand all the vocab and questions. Also, she has a lot of pride so she doesn't ask much, either. I think, had she been able to get more from the RV weekend, she'd be more committed.
Overall - she's still afraid things will not last, but she's more open to change. Time will tell. I figure if I keep changing/improving in response to the activities and other changes in my life, we can grow closer as long as I can get past the cultural/miscommunication barriers.
What about you TBL, how did last night go? Did she give it her all or did she do all but give?
But are you improving for her , you , or both of you?
This is where GAL again comes into play. Being selfish by creating healthy habits and healthy choices for yourself only does one thing. It improves yourself. Your worth. Your self esteem. Healthy habits and healthy choices. The effects are profound. And all those who interact with you on a daily basis will feed off this and eventually when the two important foundations of trust and friendship have been built you will have to ability to build a wall and then one day add a door to intimacy. Healthy habits and healthy choices , builds respect. Respect builds trust and friendship. Trust and friendship builds love.
Its a good path.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
