How do I act?

[Surviving03]

Thank you DBurt, Maynard, and Cautious! I didnt want to put the money up for a DB coach either, especially since I do have free resources for counseling with the military, but I felt like DB really resignated the most for me of all the advice i recieve so I had to give it a try.

I sent the letter, I am pretty nervous about it but hopefully it has the effect that it is intended to. At first I got a delivery notice failure that said this letter will be resent in a few hours (go figure! most important email of my life) so I resent it from my work with a read reciept on it so I can see if he actually does get it. I feel like its gonna be redundant for him now but its important that he sees it.

I HAVE to keep up this confident spirit, its easy to get broken down again, but I know if he comes home to a sad, pathetic, depressed wife, that will not be good. And I am tired of being sad and depressed so I need to change that for me too. I dont know that I can do much about the nerves, but I can sure try to hide it. Thanks for all your support!