seperated a year

[hanging in there]

NM yes I have told him I know he is lying, but refuse to tell him how I know. I read the post and I'm considering using the NC letter.
Lotus even though we have been separated a year it has only been the last 5 or 6 months that he has said he is done. Up to that point nothing was really discussed, too many hurt feeeling on both ends. A lot of craziness on my end but also a lot of mixed feelings and anger on both ends.

I sometimes get the impression he wants to be friends. For the last month or so we have been talking as friends but most contact has been made by me. He would talk about things that were going on with him and his life neer asking about me unless he knew I was going out then it was to make comments about "I hope he makes you happy". Then after a week of friendly chat no R talk whats so ever he would say things like I'm not coming back home nothing has changed.

I'm to the point that nothing I have done has worked so I'm giving NC a true chance and working on myself. I can say I do feel better and in control for the first time in a year.