I have access to his account online. He continues to tell me he isn't contacting her and its over. Of course I can't believe him so I check in every few days or so. His relationship with her has been strictly phone and computer since she lives in Canada. So I guess on that point I have it a litlle easier than others.
I think I'm going crazy now. For a year now I would have given up anything to have any kind of communication with him. Since going NC and pulling away from him I find myself not wanting to just have meaningless chat about his work or whatever else is going on in his life. Today he texted to ask if I knew the cook at our favorite restaurant opened his own business. I was polite and said yes went there the other day. He then proceeds to talk about eating there today and how he never went back to the old place because the food was bad.
On one hand I am happy to see him making contact and I understand it is baby steps but I'm also at the point were unless he wants to talk about the marriage, divorce or the kids I don't have anything else to say. I still do want my marriage to work so if that means listening to the other crap for awhile longer I will. At least its a start so we will se but I'm also not expecting anything more at this point.
Has anyone felt this way?
me 32 H 34 together since 92 married 01 bomb 3/08 s 3/08
