Well, first step completed.. Myself and the kids have booked a trip. The 4 of us only.. W staying home with the dog...
Its time to think of me and make me happy.. You are right Rob, I thought maybe her coming along may just jig a memory and maybe spark something. Wishfull thinking I guess. Next is to work out and build the pipes and get the 6 pack I always wanted.. Ok ok, its a 1 pack right now.. gotta get to 2 first... lol.
When we told the children about the trip( who by the way no nothing of our sitch) they where happy and when they asked why mom isnt coming she said she coudln take time of work. I have told her that I woul dlike the kids to finish school and take the trip before we sit them down and (W)she tells the kids what she has done and that she is the one who wants out. That will be a very tough day, especially for my little girl who is 10.. I am sad just writing this.. I know y that time I will be much stronger to handle this. Thank you for the support Rob, Sandi and MF.. Your thought are fantastic. I massage them for me, and apply them in my way. Probably not right, but trying to stay positive with this whole thing..
Going on this trip without her is definatly doing a 180.. I dont think she thought I would actually do it. She was a bit taken back. I could tell when she told the kids.. Does this sound counter intuitive? I think so, and really hope so..
M 43 W 43 S15 S 12 D 10 ILYBNILWY ( Dec 2009) Sleeping separate rooms April 8 2010. Sep as of 07/14/2010 W moving out 07/31/2010 No OM confirmed ( yet)