Okay, my report is somewhat positive, so I'm feeling good - but anxious. The talking hasn't really happened yet.
Here's what DID happen: Went to drop off S5 at X's house. Saw a suspcious car leaving - LOST IT. Now, many of you would see that as a backslide, and, in a way it was. I asked "Who was that? Who just left?"
X calmed me down and said he had no idea. I admitted I will never feel comfortable as long as OW is in his life (long story to this, OW was using and manipulating X and he was falling for it, I sort of told him that over the weekend during our blowup). He says "Okay, I'll delete OW from my phone right now. I don't need anything to do with her." I said "Been there, heard that." He validated. A hug was exchanged and then I revealed the info I have about OW (close social circles) and who she is cheating on her husband with - along with the cheatee's extensive list of alleged STD's.
He thanked me for not pressuring him to leave OW in the dust and allowing him to make his own decision. OW - I hate to be wrong, but - is GONE!
Well, one is anyway. I know he's got other interests, which is why I have to keep being grey. Anxious about tonight's conversation, especially since I have guitar lessons on Tuesdays...
wish me luck guys, but at least that ONE hurdle has been defeated, if only for now. And, you know, even if I ultimately decide not to be with him, I can rest easy knowing that won't be the future step-mom to my son and will never influence him in any way.
Hugs all around!
Me: 26 Ex: 27 Son: 5
Divorced: 3/2010 Each day is another opportunity to do it right.
