Her committment fluctuated a lot. She had felt rejected, so since I didn't love her for who she is, then there was no hope. Other days, she felt like any kind of D would be rediculous because we were meant for each other.
I think it is fair to say a lot of her feelings were reactions to my own or what had gone on that day.
Opening up brought her some more hope - partly because she felt I was more committed to the R and my heart was opening up more to her. I was telling her mostly negatives from the two charts, but she and I felt more connected by it.
So now, her committment is OK. Not good. Not bad. Keep in mind, TBL, that she doesn't understand all the vocab and questions. Also, she has a lot of pride so she doesn't ask much, either. I think, had she been able to get more from the RV weekend, she'd be more committed.
Overall - she's still afraid things will not last, but she's more open to change. Time will tell. I figure if I keep changing/improving in response to the activities and other changes in my life, we can grow closer as long as I can get past the cultural/miscommunication barriers.
What about you TBL, how did last night go? Did she give it her all or did she do all but give?
