Wow...I am in tears for the show of support. Thank you, thank you. I DO know that you ALL know what I have been feeling. I am still struggling, but I will TRY not to give up.
No calls from him is like a knife in my stomach. He asked for info for a SA by email. No concern, no care, no anything. If God does exist and have a plan, what is it?
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
Correction: You WILL NOT give up because we've got your back.
No worries on the calls. Right now your focus has to be on YOU. This is where you are falling short. No one can tell you what God's plan is for your life, but here are some ideas...
1) To show you that you are not alone 2) To show you that there are people that care about you. People you don't even know and have never met. Thousands of them. 3) To show you that you have strength inside of you that you never knew existed 4) To teach you patience and understanding
Those just came of the top of my head. I haven't read your thread and if I had I could probably come up with another dozen or so.
All I can tell you is this: YOU HAVE A PURPOSE
M:11 | T:12 | Status: Married 4C's of WAS communication: Cool, Calm, Collected and CONFIDENT
Hi I just wanted to let you know that I am seeing this through. Just at the beginning of thriving. Did a ton of surviving.
I hit rock bottom. And I realized that I lost everything except hope. That was mine. And I held on to it with everything I had. She could not take my hope no matter what. Its what made me fight for my survival. Now I have two feet on the ground. Learning and making some beautiful friends.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
Again, thank you all. I am heading out to my IC session.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
God is with you sweetie...don't look at your H or his actions..look up - God is with you!
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
Thank you for checking in. Last night was difficult, but I made it through. Why doesn't he show any concern at all for me? I go back and forth on my decisions on what to do. I told my IC last night that I feel empty and lost.
I hope you all have a good day..
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
Thank you for checking in. Last night was difficult, but I made it through.
Yes, it is hard. Every day that you survive you can see it as a sign that there is hope of overcoming the pain.
Originally Posted By: DestinyUnknown
Why doesn't he show any concern at all for me?
I know how much that hurts. The WAH has detached and we get less care and consideration from them than a distant acquaintance would. But we are worthy of concern, others are concerned about us, we should be concerned about ourselves.
Originally Posted By: DestinyUnknown
I told my IC last night that I feel empty and lost.
You need to discuss your suicidal thoughts and plans with your IC. They can't help you unless they have a clear picture of where you're at with things. Don't expect them to read between the lines or get hints.
(((DU)))
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
There are so many WHY's and so few answers in dealing with MLC. I know. There is a good site that explains what MLC is about. If you didn't come across it yet I think that it's worth reading. It may give you a glimpse into your MLC's psyche.
