The tunnel of darkness

[kjensen]

GG-Hope your weekend was OK with seeing your hubby.
Twink-thinking of you and what you're going through!

So after the bad ending of my conversation with H on Saturday, he emails me that he's got a plan to take care of the the particular financial question he'd asked me this past weekend. He stated that he was doing this on his own and hadn't consulted his lawyer. It was a far plan so I responded as such. Shared a bit about my car repair estimate ($9400!!!) and that it would take a month..

H emailed back and was sypathetic about the car, took care of the financial thing..wished me a good day. all very friendly and nice.

Last Sunday H played tennis with D14 for 2 hours...Most time he's spent with her in a long time.

Not sure if all this means anything..or just the usual rollercoaster ride.

I'm pretty detached at this point and can't see being with H as he currently is. All the anger he has towards me has really pushed me far away.

I sitll have anger towards him and the things he's said and done, but it seems to be slowly lessening in impact.

For all the stuff I believe about MLC- and its from an objective viewpoint of hearing others' stories, I guess I'm still skeptical that my H is, in fact, in MLC and that he'll acutally "wake up" someday..