My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[Gardener]

hm, Sounds like you are doing fine. Slow. Steady.
Comfortable, warm, supporting,
Keep working on your healing.

Allow it to be as it will be.
Allow you to be as you will be.

You write this chapter of your life - with a beginner's mind: no shouldas, havetas, gottas. Write your chapter. Imagine it: what would it really look, feel like, sound like and taste like if it was hoosiermama's own, very-own-just-for-me-chapter-in-my-story?

Take advice with a big grain of salt. No one who answers and advises you (including me) is hoosiermama.
You are.

If you want, you can read my Goals in the Goals thread. But no need: the bottom line is 35 years of doing it by the book, honoring obligations, putting everything and everybody else first, even before me.

Now me.
I've only got a few chapters left. I'm gonna write 'em.

Do what feels right with your friend. See if he fits into your chapter once you've envisioned it and dreamed it.