To all...I am not proud to be a soon-to-be divorcee. Although I look forward to getting this done, the finality will also bring saying goodbye to my children for probably more than half the time.
I find myself in a much better place than I was 4 years ago when I was bombed in May '06, but, I still have a long way to go. So many people here don't realize how lucky they were if their WAS punched out and just left. I'll say it then: you were very lucky.
I spoke to one of my oldest supporters here on the phone last night who has stopped posting here for the most part. I spoke with him from the parking lot of where I work....a place where many phone calls took place in the dark. I reminisced about one call we had on the eve of my trying to arrange a visit with a priest with my STBXW and several of the other attempts to save the M, now, long past and history.
I can't see myself staying here much longer after this is done. It hurts. It becomes the Saragasso Sea or Bermuda triangle: a graveyard of shipwrecks..marriages that hit a reef..unsinkables that strike an iceberg in the night. We married double-hulled wives but the hulls didn't extend to the main deck. We all had what probably amounts to 'standard' marital woes. But the hole in the ship, for them, spilled into one bulkhead, then the next, then the next until we were dragged under too.
I found myself in a little bit of replay this week, asking myself, again, the what if's......
What if.......
What I did this, or that?
Ugh.....I can't do this all over again. What's done is done.
Can anyone believe that I am still living with this woman? Fours years, 3 names that I know of, 2 police phone calls, one contempt of court, and, lest we forget, one load of laundry thrown in front of the litter box to get pee'd on by the cat.
BTW, our cat passed away on 2/27 after 16 1/2 years of being on the job. We lost our greyhound of 13 years 8/01/09. The children lost 2 pets within 6 months.
It has, to say the least, been a painful 4 years.
Originally Posted By: DonH, 2006
It sounds like MLC. I hope you have a lot of patience. This takes a long time.
Indeed, Don, indeed.
FIB
Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11) Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10 Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;
