Will I ever be forgiven???

[dday101798]

You know, up until the post where you said your kids don't know about the A, OM, I would have thought this was the journal of my former WAW. The timeline, the D, the finally waking up one day and realizing what had been done and how horrid it was and not wanting to be treated the same.

Much like Big John though, my kids knew, she up and moved out with OM and carried out her new life right in front of them without a care in the world until her 'awakening'.

I don't know what to tell you. I carried so much hurt and anger towards her for so long, yet still loved her at the same time.

What it all comes down to, is your XH will always care for you as the mother of his children. How he deals with everything else, is only the monster that all this created, and how much fault is willed into acceptance on each side.