It's complicated but it's mine #28

[kat727]

I had a really emotional night, must be the monthly visitor thing. Anyway, the kids are loud and I can't think. I just start crying and I really don't know the whole crux of what has got me sad all of a sudden. The kids come in checking on me and I tell them that I just need some time alone. Quiet please.

I get on line and talk to my girlfriend whose daughter has this disease that will eventually lead to blindness and organ failure. She was trying to learn how to give her daughter the chemo shots. Made me feel a little more humble and we chatted for a while.

I texted my friend, J a few times. He ends up calling because he knows I am sounding really upset. When I start talking to him everything comes out. Nothing about the divorce because that isn't it. I am crying and he is talking to me slowly, calming me down. He even had me laughing a bit. I am really glad that we are friends and I feel bad too because that is how we were when I first liked flirt guy all those years ago.

It is all so complicated.

kat