seperated a year

[hanging in there]

Still working on NC with H since last Sat. He called on Thursady to see if I was going to be home he had something for our oldest daughter. I responded with no I'm heading out, you can leave it on the porch. Then quickly got off the phone. This took me by surprise because he never calls only texts randomly if at all.

Fast forward to today he texts to see if I'm working this weekend. After about 2 hours I reply back no, why. He tells me his family is havinga bday party for his grandmother who will be 80 and would like to take the girls. I said that was fine I would make other plans since they will not be with me. He chit chats a little about tiling his bathroom floor. No reponse further drom me.

I have to say I was a little upset. During our whole mariage I was always attending family functions with our children by myself because he never wanted to go. Now since he moved out he is all about going and being part of the family. Guess I was just upset about not being invited.

I understand its his family, but I have a wonderful relationship with his parents. During this whole last year they have supported me in moving on with my life and told me they are ashamed of his actions.

Either way even though it does bother me on some level I am acting as if and staying focused on me. I can't control what they do that includes h.

I'm sticking to my NC and not contacting him in anyway unless it is strictly business (no flase ideas of business to try and strike up a convo either)

Even though it is hard to feel like he is still moving on and is okay with all this I am determined to fake it till I make it.