I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

[Quart9]

A few posts back I listed some things I have been doing for me to get me into a better place in life. Besides the horrible day I had yesterday, I am feeling pretty good.

It doesn't seem like there are too many 'right' reasons to get a D and it seems like making the decision to get the D can never really be made from a healthy place.

There's not much strategy in trying to get my W's attention by filing for D. She wants a D and I asked her back in Jan to hold off on following through with it.

I saw proof yesterday that W has been communicating with a L over the past couple of weeks. W and I spoke last night and she said that she has a referral for a L and, if I'm ready, she would like for us to meet with the L together at the end of this week to get the process going.

I think the D is going to get filed whether I do it or not. I have to look out for my best interests though.