DU, I'll tell you I don't know your whole story but I understand the way you are feeling. I've been there. Depressed, suicidal, and just looking for a way out.
God has great plans for you and loves you. In the darkest times in our lives, that is when He is holding us.
Isaiah 43:18-19
"The Lord says, 'Forget what happened before, and do not think about the past. It is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun!'".
Psalm 126:5 - For those who sow in tears shall reap with joyful shouting.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
DU, I've never posted to you and I haven't read your sitch. We're strangers here and I hope I can find the right words to say to you.
There is always hope. Even in the most dour of circumstances. When everything looks wrong and fruitless. That is when we discover our strength. People have heard your desperate call and we're here for you.
Please, please, please. Get some help. You are worth it. You are worthy.
Like the others who've posted here we are strangers, I haven't read your sitch and don't know a lot about the place where you find yourself now, other than to say I have been there to.
8 months ago my wife of 23 years up and left me and our 3 kids for another man. Just went!
For such a very long time I felt that I had failed my family in some way, that there was something wrong with me and that the world would be a better place without me in it.
It took me a long time and a lot of outside help and encouragement to realize that this wasn't my fault and that I shouldn't punish myself and my loved ones for something I didn't do. My family and friends deserve better than that.
I came to see that I'm a person of value, I'm worthy of love and friendship, I would not have been put on this Earth otherwise. Each and every one of us have a special contribution to make to the people we love and care about.
Destiny, Trust that you are not alone, there IS hope, there IS a Life for you at the end of this.
If you need Help, PLEASE don't be afraid to ask.
I will be praying for you.
H: 44 W: 42 Married: 23 years Bomb: 16/07/2009 PA Confirmed: 16/01/2010 Over it & working on ME: Feb'ish 2010
I am overwhelmed with the show of support and care shown in all of the postings. I SINCERELY appreciate your concern. I do know that you all have been where I am now. I have never felt so low or unwanted. I don't know what I want to do. For the first time in my life, I am confused, unsure about why this happened, and what the future holds. That is why I wanted to give up. I have an apppointment today with my IC.
I am not sure what I am going to eventually do - I just know that I feel nothing but sadness. You all have strength that I cannot seem to muster right now. I don't think that my family, the few friends I have, or my my H truly understands what this is doing to me. I feel no one listens or wants to do what is right.
Thank you to my DBing friend last night - thank you for talking with me. And thank you all for all or words of support.
HUGS to you all...
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
Destiny, I know that you are suffering, my heart goes out to you. I'm sending you my positive thoughts.
There are many people on this board reaching out to you. We all care about you and are very concerned for you. Get back on the board - we need to know that you are OK.
I know that you feel hopeless right now...Just remember that after every dark night comes a beautiful morning. This time of despair WILL pass and you WILL be happy again, it will happen, BELIEVE.
FIGHT GIRL, YOU CAN DO IT !!!!
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO