Invinceable

[mishka422]

Saving it. I HATE drama! Now I just feel like total crap. There is no way I want him to have any control over me. It sucks so bad that he thinks lying to me about something so important is necessary. He thinks I'm such a raging lunatic that I'm going to blast him for not having a job. Good God! Have I changed that much? Have I become someone who would rage at him because of something that is mostly out of his control? Heavens, I must have become someone I don't even know if he could think this about me.

Lola - I can't go after him for the cs. I'll screw myself big time because the judgment will come back zero and I'll have to jump through hoops to get it adjusted later assuming he ever gets a job.

Stepping away. I'm all screwed up and really don't know what to do next. I can't fix me, why do I expect Gabe to fix himself? Why keep at this? No one is going to come out of this alright, so I'm tired of trying.