God, feeling down today. Saw W last night - I was with the boys at the house, she came home. She really does seem to hate me now. She started with "So...OK, thank you." Meaning, you can leave now.
We had previously discussed me moving back into the house, and her moving to the apartment I'm in now. I asked about when we should do it - and she said, I haven't found a place yet. I asked her what was going on, and she said "I don't want to live where you've lived."
I talked to my sister yesterday, and she had all good points - she's the one who decided to tear the family apart, she's the one that lied, went off with OM, she's the one that didn't work on it, she's suffering the consequences of her actions. Hey, sounds familiar, doesn't it.
I'm letting it get to me too much, I know. I do wish I could not care. It's eating at me though. Well, I type these things, and I hear Karen's words - you've got to detach more.
I think I WAS generous with her in the marriage. Now it is necessarily different. Of course it is.
This is going to be so much better when it's done and I'm out.
Ahhh so many half-baked thoughts in my head and I really have to focus on work now.
