One week and counting to trial. Although I have been here before (12/16/09), I find myself going thru replay...a lot of what if's. Was I not a good DB'er? What could I have done better? Should I have been more patient when she came back?
No...the clandestine meetings, lying, inability to function when 'coming back'. It's rough, now. It's rough.
No...the relationship with my STBXW is over and she is a complete stranger, someone who would back the car over me if no one was looking.
I am not looking forward to being in a public forum and being painted as someone I am not. I grieve for my children, but, life can't continue this way.
I also grieve that I must do what I must next week. I am sorry that I must prepare for this. It's not in my core values as a man. None of this was. None.
Again, to Clinging, I agree with everything 25 has said. It is a huge waste of time to hope that 'divine retribution' comes around. It is also a waste of time hoping that they will come around and say "I made a huge mistake".
They fell out of love.
They dislike us enough, at least in my sitch, to destroy a family, hurt their kids and throw their home away and call the police on you and try and have you arrested.
Quote:
It's a thin line between love and hate
Who wrote that? FIB
Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11) Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10 Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;
