I know this is hard. One of the things I have done to occupy myself is help others, but the experience hasn't been all positive (note to self: chronically ill people can be MEAN!). I guess we just have to keep trying new activities until we find something that works for us. Yesterday I decided I wanted to start swimming, so I went out and bought a new bathing suit, beautiful beach towels, sandals, gym bag, the works. Now I'm really excited about it.