Understood. I am getting it. Before I discovered DR book and this forum I read other materials that took a different approach which I can now see would be considered pursuit. I am just trying to break out of that mind set.

As I mentioned we are almost on month two of change and improving myself. I will be making calls today in attempts to find a good therapist.

I am willing to put the work and time in, just sometimes I start to panic because I feel like time is running out but I know by letting the panic set in I am being selfish and not pursuing my goal of becoming a better person.


M: 27, W: 25
Together since: 01/31/00
M: 10/4/09 (8 Months)
ILBNILWY: 01/24/10
EA confirmed: 02/10/10 (Busted).
Road to Reconcile began: 07/10/10
Retrouvaille: 09/10/10