Understood. I am getting it. Before I discovered DR book and this forum I read other materials that took a different approach which I can now see would be considered pursuit. I am just trying to break out of that mind set.
As I mentioned we are almost on month two of change and improving myself. I will be making calls today in attempts to find a good therapist.
I am willing to put the work and time in, just sometimes I start to panic because I feel like time is running out but I know by letting the panic set in I am being selfish and not pursuing my goal of becoming a better person.
M: 27, W: 25 Together since: 01/31/00 M: 10/4/09 (8 Months) ILBNILWY: 01/24/10 EA confirmed: 02/10/10 (Busted). Road to Reconcile began: 07/10/10 Retrouvaille: 09/10/10