It's the thing that if I get a virus, somebody could get my passwords and then bank accounts and credit card info and such. I can get my own computer that's a good idea. But trust me, it will be something else. It has been my driving, etc.
To me the problem is the "see you'll never change and neither will I" kind of blame I can't stand. And that the conversaion evolves into things that are hurtful to me sch as him saying "This sucks. I hate these conversations. The way to end these is for you to not do what you did or don't talk to me about it or I avoid you." No willingness to look at the way he talks to me. That is not important to him. He thinks that's "my problem" if I get upset.
I should have walked away. I got baited and sucked in again. I'm so tired of feeling rejected and like I have to be perfect to win him back. He doesn't even have any idea i feel that way.
My 180 should be to walk away. That's what I'll have to do.
