DU.....please dont ever feel God has abandoned you I was there where youa re right this moment I felt I could no longer go on with out my husband...many times on my way home I had planned out exactly how I was going to end my life of pain.. I drove home practiaclly with my eyes shut because I was crying so hard and wanted to end it all... But God was with me the whole way....many many times I had those thoughts and I would cry out to God and by his grace I am still here.the bible says "he comes to heal the brokenhearted" and he has done that for me...I had days when all I could do was think of ways to stop my pain.......and death was the ony answer.... the one thing I have learned from all of this is that WE CANT FIX IT OR FIX THEM.....we have to let it go and turn it over to God....get some medication....stay on your knees and pray....he really does hear our prayers... PLEASE PLEASE DONT DO THIS, It WILL NOT SOLVE ANYTHING..... Heb 12 11 says
No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but PAINFUL. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and PEACE for those who have been trained by it. God disciplines those he loves D/U he has chosen us to stand for our husbands,our marriages, our family, for us to grow into the person he has planned for us..
I dont know if anyone has given you the link to this website I cant tell you how many times I have gone there and it has helped me so much.....rejoicemarriageministries.org.
I have been at this for over 3 yrs. and I can tell you from my heart the pain does get better and WE GET BETTER I have a better relationship with God because of me going thru this....have faith and dont give up, the devil's job is to SEEK, KILL,AND DESTROY, DONT LET HIM WIN......God is a good God.....read the word of God and like I said just talk to him he really does listen....may not feel like he does but he really does I can testify to that......
