Allen, These last 2 convo were in person as we were exchanging the kids. I've done the sitter a couple times like you suggested, but there was no one available these last 2 times. However, I'm kind of glad there wasn't because it gave me the chance to prove to myself that I can be strong having a convo with him. As you know, I've never been able to do this before.
I do feel better then he does right now, and I actually feel bad for how much he is suffering. Him crying in front of me last night was huge, he never does that. I agree this OW is messing with his head big time, and is making him feel worse. From what his mom told me the OW has even asked him to come and fix her dryer on Sat. He didn't tell his mom it was her, but we suspect it was. No one else we know is having drying problems.
I have been accepting some calls, but no all. I just can't bring myself to fully do the NC. However, I think what I am doing is working. I'm really trying to show him that I'm the better choice, without being the doormat. This is hard to balance, but I'm managing, I think.
While we were talking last night, his phone kept dinging and I suspect it was her. And he was getting really annoyed with it, so I really hope it was her bugging him.
Together 16 years Married 12 years Me 36 H 34 D9 & S6 Separated 12/3/09 Confirmed A 1/25/10 Exposed A 1/26/10 H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10
