I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

[timehealsall]

Thanks crushed! I will look into it.

I'm very emotional today. I have a second interview so I need to snap out of it.

I keep thinking of my conversation yesterday with WS and am sad that we were at a better place just weeks ago and now it feels like we are back at square one. I don't know if this is his own emotional roller coaster that he's going through or what, but I just wish we could ride it out together.

I truly cannot imagine my life without him. I cannot accept the thought that we were only meant to have our beautiful children together, that I will not accept... I don't believe in that.. I feel dumb for even having thought of that. I don't know what to do.. my heart is telling me to talk to him and wants to be with him but I'm thinking that'll push him further away so I need to pray to god to give me the strength to give him the time he needs to sort himself out.