X doesnt say hi or bye anymore when I pick up kids from her. Seems X has to have somebody in her life no matter how bad she sh$t talks them, like she did OM to me and I am sure he has heard quite some stuff about me. I think X thought I was going to kiss her a$$ and bend over backwards for her to come running back to me. Truthfully, I fought for the M while it was going thru the D, but I guess I am not over that or X so anyone right now isnt going to win me over.
At times I think how great it would be to have the family back, as X once mentioned and I told her its not about us as a family, we have to work on you and me first. Just crazy how feelings change so quickly on X's side. Shows me there is a lot of old X there and just let nature and X run thier course.
Sometimes I think about how it would be and think about the old times, and I know I shouldnt think like that cause if you think like that, that is how it probably will be. Guess what I am saying, is that X's intentions seemed good, but couldnt follow thru with them.
Oh and about the facebook stuff, X isnt even my friend on there but I hear about this or that (like blocking her which I did when I first got on there, then we started going out to eat and I unblocked her but never became my friend on there although she mentioned it a few times. Then after this whole "friend" deal, I changed my settings around so X thinks she is blocked again). I just her stuff from X so it shows me that she is on fb trying to dig stuff up and then assumes things and that is what happened on this deal with that "friend".
Sometimes I am not around X and think "man, we could do this". Then sometimes I get around X and think "here is why I am glad we arent together".
Thats all for now, sure will think of stuff later today again.
