DU - I agree with you, your H will not be back right now. Think of it this way though, you didn't see this coming did you? There is no way to know that when and if your H gets through the tunnel and the fog clears that he won't return in the future. Faith, hope, and love is why we all ended up here. I believe God led us to this place to let us find the tools we need to deal with this time in our lives.
Only you knows if standing is worth it to you.
You do not have to walk this journey alone. God is with you and so are we.
