As hard as this is now, it will get better. When my H left, (H moved 150 miles north to our cabin 3 weeks ago) I thought I would never be able to move on. But everyday, sometimes all day, I would read posts here and little by little that awful feeling in my stomach, the loneliness and heartache lifted. Just knowing I'm not 'alone' in going through this....all our stories are so similar....and so many have survived!
There are times when I think NC might not be a good thing, but then I remember, things were NOT changing the other way either. I'm pretty sure H has ALOT more contact now with OW...but he was already having contact with her.
H has ONLY called me about 4 times in 3 weeks....which in a strange way has helped me. For me, it was more toxic living together. I wasn't able to GAL...I was more concerned with what H was doing.
You are doing a great job...remember you are not alone
M55 H55 my D31 H D30 1st met her when she was 25 M 22yrs...2nd for me, 1st for H OW 2005 mother of H daughter, came back to introduce D 1bomb 6/05 2bomb 7/08 3bomb 2/10 moved up north
