here we go again

[Jstar]

So saturday h shows up to pick us up to go to d2.5soccer. the ride there was silent except daughter and i. practice went well d was happy kicking ball h took tons of pictures of her.

we went and got something to eat afterwards and there was some chit chat. i can't stay away from relationship talk yes all wrong.

had to go to walmart, we were there for hours, d2.5 loves to shop and walked around with womens pink fake snake skin shoes for the noise.

we talked a little bit, says oh yeh last few days i have been good, feeling guilty for putting his crap outside. says his mom doesn't want to see baby bcuz i put his crap outside and wonders why id o it. i have same answer, because h puts me and kids in the trash ignoring not helping us.

anyways bottom line was he is still so angry about things in m and holding a grudge. i probably am as well but more willing to move on.

i had to put it this way, what kind of dad r you going to be? the once twice a week visitation or the married dad with me?

the limbo and stagnate pond water we are in is making it so i can not move on. i want my marriage

uh more late baby crying