W has decided to get baptized at her church. She's been going there for about a year and they do baptisms on a regular basis and asked her before about doing it. She resisted, as she told them "I'm not doing what God wants right now."
She didn't want to get baptized until she was sure she was ready to follow God. She came home and announced she was doing it on Easter weekend, saying she's "going to follow Jesus."
She said the last two weeks of scripture readings they did convinced her to do it. We had no discussion about this and how it pertains to our relationship, I just congratulated her and told her it was great.
The optimist in me would like to think she's come to a place in her mind to trust God and His plan for marriage, and this could possibly be a turning point in her willingness to work on our relationship. A pessimistic view would be that there will be no change to her prior thinking that God will offer her forgiveness and she will just move on. Tough to tell, but she was happy in our interactions today.
The reading was the gospel story where the apostles were fishing all day and caught nothing. Jesus told them to put their nets back in the water, and although they protested that it would be fruitless, they did so and caught more fish than they could bring aboard.
Not sure what message she got from this; maybe I'll ask her, but I don't want to pry into her thinking and have her believe that I'm reading something into it that isn't there. But it could go back to me questioning her on what she thought faith was, and whether she trusted God enough to do what He asks of her, even if she's worried about the outcome.
WAW Using God Me-43 W-40 M-14 S-11 S-9 D-7 EABomb 5/09 Separated 12/09
