1. I want both of them to suffer. They don't get to live happily ever after. I want to destroy their R. I'm not proud of this, but there it is.
2. I want ow to know the truth. I want her to know that H is lying through his teeth and is messing with her and her family. As much as I loathe her, she needs to know this. Slightly more altruistic.
I'm dragging my feet in terms of doing it, though. I still have to talk to a lawyer and make sure I have all my bases convered. I know that H will not come home on his own at this point. I don't even know right now if I ever want him to come home. I want to end this on my terms, I guess, but I hate it. This is SO not the result that I hoped/ prayed/ worked for.
BTW, I am 41 now. All my horoscopes say that this will be a fantastic year for me, and it will--because I will make it so.
Love you, my DB friends. Be well. Spring is coming!
