I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

[Quart9]

I was just kidding crushed I wouldn't post photos. At this point I am positive I won't be there when whatever they have crumbles. He's married too and in the process of D I guess.

He and I look alike a little except for the fact that he is hairless and has a six pack. Lucky he has his hand over his crotch in his nudes so I'm spared on that comparison. It makes me wonder if she sent nudes to him - sick.

With each minute that goes by now I actually feel a little more detached and I'm not as hurt as I was ealier. My heart was pounding out of my chest like it was the day I first found out about him.

I'm a little jealous of the way she talked to him in the e-mails I saw. I don't remember her ever talking to me the way she talks to him or maybe it has just been a long time since she has. They've got something real special I guess.

I just need to toughen up here and hold my head up.