FM: It feels really wierd to be alone in a world seemingly filled with couples. OTOH, I was glad to be in a place that was my demographic, and where there was no "single" action going on...I'm not ready for that.
Yes, it's weird and stays weird to be the single among couples if you're used to being in a couple. Even though H and I did a lot independently in the past, he was there in my mind, thus I wasn't single or separated. Now it feels weird. Like, "Look at all the happy couples. I used to be in one. Wonder if theirs will last."
Also, ditto on the single action stuff. Since H and I are separated he is not around to run interference from other men as I guess he must have in the past in a way I didn't notice. Now people ask me out and hit on me more often and it's a pain in the ass. I'm not remotely interested and it's a reminder that I may be about to be single. It just seems depressing. I know I'm supposed to reframe it as "wow, look at all the other fish in the sea" but I don't care or feel like it.
