Thank you so much for replying. It feels good to have people listen, to care, and empathize once again.
Snodderly, it was my computer, it started with my keyboard, simply one letter at a time, and then, whoosh, no more. Actually, the laptop was D's, until her father purchased her a new laptop. It took a few months to raise enough money to have it repaired, and not only did I repair the old laptop, but I also had my desk top worked on and it too now works! Finally an outlet for my thoughts (so I no longer have to carry them around with me) and a form of entertainment back into my life. I'm working on getting a TV, have been for years, however, it doesn't seem to fail, once I have enough money, something else pops up (usually court) and the monies I save, go elsewhere. Nothing unusual, happens to everybody.
Creed, you are amazing! Yes, by all means, bring on your can of whoop --- and help me exonerate my name, who I am, and all I stand for, the REAL person I am, and not who Dick has portrayed me in the courts. I don't care to go after him... Karma will take of that in it's own sweet time... all I want, is to blow holes in all of his lies, so I can simply be me again, the good, the bad, the whole of me.
I choose to live as though the court's view of me doesn't affect me, or my life. I do, where my work life is concerned. It's in my private life, where my children belong, that's where it hurts the most. Not having them with me, day to day, has destroyed the biggest part of me. Oh sure, I knew they would have left for college eventually, as I know I would have felt the empty nest syndrome, they are close to the ages they would have left.... but somehow, this just doesn't give me the comfort or completeness I yearn to feel, as I did when they were with me. They are the biggest part of me.
I would like to expose the truth, and clear my name, just so they don't ever have to question themselves, and wonder who I really am or wonder if our past relationship was what they thought or remember it to be.
Right now, it just seems impossible.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
