Thanks for the support everyone - many times I wonder if I'm not just being a doormat again - but I'm trying to emphasize the positive for now. Sometimes I think I should shut him out and be distant to show I'm not ok with the separation and the plane and all - but I'm hoping for reconsiliation so I am trying to make our times together upbeat, positive and fun.
I must say it's a relief as well after so many months of anger and hurt. I myself can't stomach any more negativity!
