Going straight forward...antlers 6th thread.

[antlers]

"Nothing you ever say to me will change the amount of hate I feel towards you."

This is part of some texts I got from her last night because my son wanted to come over and stay with me when he was with her. She threatens me with her lawyer all the time...she 'draws' him like a gun! She accuses me of driving a wedge between her and the kids. She tells me how I haven't changed, never will, and how much her hatred for me continues to increase, and how bad of a person I am. And she tells me how happy she is now.

I told her I had no desire to change how she felt, and that I understood she felt the way she does. I also said that since I've made some changes, it sure feels nice to say just how I like myself again. In the midst of her angry texts to me, I also told her that I respect myself enough now to let go of people who don't value me. She's texted me a good bit recently...angry stuff. She said that I "wished" she were unhappy, and I said "nope, on the contrary, I wish us both well." A couple of days ago when she was texting me nastygrams, I told her that I'm looking good on the inside for the first time in a long time.

Trying to feed my spirit more daily with some inspirational reading. Weather starting to change for the better so getting outside and exercising will increase...YEA!