Joie! I cannot believe he is still with that ow! I remember seeing a picture of her.. YUCK!!! He is crazy!
I am so sorry that you are going through this. I know what you mean about feeling like a shell of the person you used to be. I will tell you, though, that even if things don't turn out like you want them to, ANYTHING is better than continuing to live with the lies and deceipt of the A.