!Help! Need Advice and encouragement!

[stark648]

Party was great-daughter and friends had a great time. Wife and I visited and were sorta like we were together.

She was touching me...not like sexual, but nicely on the arm and things-calling me "babe",--this-type behavior was just like we did when we were together. Sometimes moving very close to me-leaning on me-even when I would move away some-she would come closer. This did not seem just like "friendly".

She still has some good feelings for me in there somewhere.

She helped out a lot at the party and we worked as a team with presents and watching kids, you know, the usual party stuff.

When she first got there, a couple of times, she was tearing up, I think d-11 may have said something that made her cry, or ?.

She would go out to smoke, and would use some excuse to get me to go outside to visit--just wanting my company, I think.

She got a couple of texts during the party, but got rid of them quickly to be polite. I ALSO had a couple of texts from a woman, and tried to do the same. She was quite interested in my texts or phone pics, as I was being kind-of secretive and quickly closing it.

I was upbeat, smelled good, etc. She was complimenting me about some small stuff-and I complemented her on how the girls were getting prettier, just like their momma.

Mainly, though, it was more like old b-day parties and we rather enjoyed each other's company. She was not resentful, like some visits, or like there was anger under the skin.

On the outside, I was confident, positive and attractive--and she noticed.
On the inside, every so often, I would feel sad we weren't really together. But for that time period, it was almost like we were. And her eyes looked better for the most part-and she would look me in the eyes more.--even some interested-type looks. I caught her noticing me when I wasn't looking at her.

Should I try calling or texting her more and re-build our friendship? After all, the OM moved from being a friend to the EA/PA "steal-my-wife-and-move-her-in" boyfriend. COULD IT WORK TO BRING HER BACK? OR DO YOU THINK SHE WOULD JUST LIKE TO REBUILD OUR FRIENDSHIP FOR FRIENDSHIP'S SAKE. ADVICE?

I know from the last three encounters, she still has some attraction & a smidgen of love for me.

Then she was getting tired, like she does lately, which may be due to lack of sleep--or like me, I seem to need more naps from the anti-depressants or the stress. or, she may have been ready to go see OM at their house.(but she did look worn out)

Well, on the way home, and then for hours, I texted back and forth with a nice attractive woman I met on the net. We may have a date next weekend. She knows my sitch. It is nice to feel attractive and have someone who is truly interested in me.

The date would be fun, and would probably help my self-esteem.(the conversations already have) I'm not giving up on the marriage, but connecting with other females sure seems like GAL'ing for me.--Boosts me up and distracts me from so much pain so often. I am still attractive, interesting, and fun!
The women know my sitch, but they like my attention to them, also.

It also seems to make my W rather more interested than she should be, if it's true she doesn't really care who I am involved with.

On the other hand, W seems commited to her choice in OM and has not given any indication she will ever change her mind about him. I DON'T GIVE UP HOPE, BUT I'M NOT EXACTLY SITTING AROUND WAITING FOR HER TO CHANGE HER MIND, EITHER. It will be strange if she shows up again at church tomorrow. I better get to sleep, or I won't be at church, tomorrow!