The tunnel of darkness

[kjensen]

The emails regarding kids' schedules have been flowing back and forth all week..Finally saw H this morning at D14's drumline competition.

As we were going to our cars, H brings up some financial stuff. During the conversation it becomes apparent that H thinks we had a conversation in which we both agreed to get divorced and that H feels I've shut him out of my/our kids' lives and H thinks I decided, on my own, that D12 can go on this summer trip.

D12, unfortunately, heard much of he conversation even though she was in the car with the doors shut and we were outside.

OK this is tripping me out. To be face-to-face with more rewriting of recent events really makes me question my perspective.

H texted D12 tonight to see if she wanted him to go to tomorrow's meeting. She came and told me she told H that she didn't care, but if we fought then she didn't want him to come. So he told her he wasn't coming.

I obviously failed miserably at DBing today. Mentally I don't think I'm trying to bust the divorce at this point as it seems pretty much a done deal. I thnk I'm trying to get my head around the fact that I will be a single mom/co-parent soon and prepare myself for that. I still hope H will wake up someday and maybe things will work out somehow between us..but I don't think that day will happen very soon.

Just feel bad for D12.