I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

[Quart9]

Last night I had my first experience here in LA of going out and talking to women. It was scary, fun, and a little discouraging. I went out with a couple of buddies from school that are my age and they took me to a couple of hot spots.

My buddies were really encouraging me to talk to chicks. So I did and I was suprised with myself. I didn't get any phone numbers or anything and I didn't really try to. I actually felt a little guilty but it was fun.

It's discouraging because it seems like alot of the women here are really materialistic (even my W became more materialistic after we moved here). And that just annoys me.

The scary part of this is the realization that meeting new women and dating could be a tougher process now that I'm not in my early 20's anymore. Its certainly something I didn't expect to have to do ever again. I'm in no rush of course (I haven't even filed the D papers yet-ha) and I don't plan on starting a relationship with someone anytime soon.